dancing in the rain

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airship

In an article on why airships will never be part of our transportation infrastructure i responded:
Thank you so much for the history of the airship. I really appreciated it even if your conclusions were let us say a bit myopic. But in my experience engineers are always a bit so. After my death I'll tell you why. But again thank you and I really mean no disrespect because engineers are very necessary to making things where dreamers like me sometimes never get off the ground and at times even get lost in the clouds.
After doing much thinking about this I discovered something which makes it possible for airships to survive but to be the Saviour of our future. If we think about global warming and consequences we find that trains have a hard time underwater and so do trucks. Now airplanes will be able to fly but airports will be under water. Now a airship is very flexible in a world gone lets say mad. But I have kept my secrets a long time and it was over 10 years ago I discovered this. But how can you trust an old man who chases windmills and believes in rigid airships(whoops). Now for the intelligent reader obviously excluding engineers you might find a hint in what I am saying. So after I die I'll tell you all in my memoirs. Because at this moment if I had the backing I would be making billions proving him wrong. The world is safe because at the moment I am poor. But in the future maybe by accident I will break the egg that I am enclosed in. Now here is a though. When we become a human being we differentiate at certain times certain cells become part of us and latter on more sophisticated cells come along until you get us a human being. Now in jest I would say engineers are very early in the differentiation process. Now for some reason I haven't differentiated and so my 10 - billion dollar ideas lay dormant. I have always had fun poking engineers because they are so arrogant. But it is only fun on my part. And so here I sit in my egg waiting to differentiate and achieve my goal of first bypass flight to Alpha Centauri. Just an old man and impossible dreams, right? I mean it would probably take me 50 years to do that. I watch Nasa TV and I feel so sad. My GOD what are spacesuits for. I mean if you had to put one on to save your life you would be long dead. And the space shuttle is dying with nothing to replace it. America has lost its vision(obviously engineers have taken over). Oh well shut the lights out send the engineers home we are done with the shuttle, space and silly notions like scifi. I think my thread is done RIP NASA

being totally blind

A long time ago specifically 1968 i was working in Rome New York with my first wife Sarah. In the course of our relationship i hypnotized her at least maybe more than 50 times. Anyway i discovered 5 past lives. And over the years i have wished to follow up on this. Now I am pursuing helping blind women. Information on the blind I.E. totally blind is costly. A single article in Scientific american cost $7.95 and other sources want up to $100 for a book. With my retirement and supporting my wives in Africa I have very few dollars left to pursue this. But recently I have a question about dreaming. One theory is that unless a person has achieved between 4-7 years as a sited person the dreams will be mainly acoustical with no visual information. Now if I put the two projects together. Will past lives all be of blind people. Or will past lives include sighted individuals. If as the researchers believe u must have had sight at an early age then past lives of totally blind people will also be of blind people. I am interested in the brain as far as memory and visual content. The amount of storage for visual memory is staggering but for auditory very small in comparison. So obviously in researching totally blind from birth allows us to collapse one variable ie the variable of vision in the mind. I have worked with several phds on a computer consulting bases at Johns Hopkins Wilmer eye institute and at Wills eye hospital. Not that it gives me any special insight except for advising my second wife Anne on how to proceed with her eye tumor. The advantage I have at this moment is two fold. One I am retired and I work for no one except myself. Advantage two is that I am now a Kenyan and the rules in Kenya r different than here. Not the official rules but the tribal rules. And I can hire a blind person to work for me at $75.00 a month. I would love to have at least 10 people work for me so I can research many things. Dr Robert Massof gave me the most cherished compliment I ever had. He called me the most creative person he had ever met.
Now u may want to equivocate on this but my past record I believe substantiates this. So I am writing here because I would like to have help financially. At this moment I have about $400.00 and I need $600 more to return to Africa. So if u know of someone who would like to contribute I would greatly appreciate it. I could go to any number of charities to seek help but as I thought about it I could feel the chains tightening around my neck. I am to say the least untamed. The way I think and do things is not in the mold of NGO's or Religious organizations. My main goal is to explore the unknown and to help those people who have no champion. I am through trying to force my way as in my whole life it has never worked that way. I am opening my arms to the Universe to let it happen if not I have many projects and many ideas enough to hire 10,000 people but no project in my mind is more noble than to help blind women of Kenya.
As ever I remain Dana Quijote

bigotry

Hello again,
Bigotry. Why does it exist. The simple explanation is because when we r afraid we shout, we bluster. One night walking alone on a deserted street in Africa I found myself shouting. Why because I was certain I was about to die. In Africa alone on a street after about 10pm is as close to Russian roulette as you can get. It is not uncommom to hear screams in the night. Do I go rushing out on the street to help. Sorry to say I am just a common coward. Now if it was my family i would and if death should appear I would die defending my loved ones. So on the internet without any governor on decorum ur hear so many angry men and some women. And the worst is those scientist who assume they know everything and everyone else is stupid. Just because I have 47 years experience in computers doesn't make my opinion worth anymore than anyone elses. And my favorite saying "Once u learn the truth you shut the doors to other truths" Because no matter ur opinion the truth is relative to one overriding thing. How does this truth allow u to predict future events. Some truths r ok if u lived 1000 years ago but today help in no way because we as humans have learned that that way doesn't help us anymore. SO the internet has allowed opinionated loud mouths to rule the cyberways. SO to learn new things u really have to shovel a lot of shit first and other indignities before u learn something. But the big but is that it works. All we can do is dig out our logic tool kit and work our way through the bullshit till we find those nuggets hidden in there. And we hold those nuggets high for all to see and we progress a nano inch forward. And thank God for those who love to shovel shit rather those who love to produce it.
So I guess I can redefine bigotry as those who produce shit.
So to those of u out there shoveling shit keep at it because somewhere inside the mountain of shit is some gold.
As ever I remain Dana Quijote

68times around the sun

Hello i just finished lap 68 around the sun. I limp a little and my right eye is losing the battle but i am here still charging windmills. I am getting ready to go to africa my job here is done. I am excited about helping the blind. I have a new web site i am working pn www.withoutsight.com I have some new ideas which if i get some funds i will implement to help the blind. It has become my problem de jour. The quote from Lord acton has always resonated in my mind "Power tends to corrupt, and absolute power corrupts absolutely." To accomplish my goals i must have enormous power and i had the fear it would destroy me. For over 20 years i wrestled with this problem. Until I found the solution. So I will rephrase the quote. Power corrupts when the balance between power and responsibility becomes unbalanced. Thus absolute power must be matched with absolute responsibility. Anyway a new day has come and a cause has formed now i lay my cause in the hands of destiny.

My Dreams My Choices

Dear reader this is a nice book and flows gently along. Since I have been in Kenya I would like to explain a few things. In Kenya education is everything the whole society revolves around it with national test and ranking and children striving to be the best. In Kenya it is a common practice to bribe the teachers to get your child into her/his classes. And unlike the USA they have school fees. And if you don't pay they will beat your child. Anyway this book shows you the general scope of education in Kenya. But is far more brutal than she relates here. If I related to you the stories and heartbreaks I have encountered in Kenya you would be reduced to tears. As I often was. But I am an example of Clementine's spirit as at the age of 65 walking out of a hospital and getting on a plane to Kenya. And as I arrived the riots began but as a white man I was treated with respect but God help u if u were a Luo in Nairobi or a Kikuyu in Kisumu many people died and so many buses arrived in Kisumu with refuges. But I never regretted going to Kenya as I learned so much about my self. And as she says "be courageous, do what you have never done, go where you have never been, and you will see the change." I came to Africa and she came to USA different sides of the same coin. Read the book it is a good book and will not take you long to read. I downloaded as an ebook and don't regret it as it was a good book i recommend it without reservation.

osama bin laden

Finally at last the evil man is dead. The bombing of the twin Towers was an act of an evil man and the USA an innocent child. After ten years we have finally killed him but his legacy carries on. Although the planes killed 3000 people they also killed an innocent nation. Try and travel by plane and they say this may be bin laden until we prove otherwise. The innocents of airplane travel gone. Government dedicated to rights of the individual gone. Secret prisons, torture, murder the rise of the third reich maybe now transformed into the fourth reich. Yes bin laden is dead but the innocents of our democracy is now gone we now r in full grips of the ends justify the means. So bin laden won he has taken our innocents and we live with that inside our mortal souls. Like a child raped we will live with the consequences for the rest of our lives. Suicide bombers were born in the conflagration of the twin towers. This became the method of terror the rules changed. Now gentle Islamics are feared we all lost something that day. Can we now heal ourselves of this affliction. Wiki leaks showed the true heart of our government. Can we learn our lesson or shall evil continue to walk the land will this finally destroy america. I don't know but I fear it will. Where r our ethics? Religion has gone of the deep end. Instead of preaching love and giving help to the poor as a society we reach for the dollar not the soul.
What does it profit a man if he gaineth the whole world yet suffers the loss of his own soul
For each and ever action there is an equal and opposite reaction.
So now innocent people will be tortured and how can we say that is inhuman and those outside our domain will say u did it. I believe we as Americans r bigger than that we survive with our moral dignity and our ingenuity. We don't need torture what we need is integrity.
May the force be with u

Returning to Kenya

When u r flying on a plane and u approach the airport there is a point where the engines stop struggling and a peace comes about as if the engines have stopped and u r flying into heaven. That is where I am now. The mission has been accomplish the move has been made in 4 months to move a mountain accumulated over 25 years. Lots of things were tossed. But the books were saved. I estimated I have about 5000 books out on the porch and the little storage shed. Some r abused and one touch they practically fall apart but they have been my treasures and sifting through the rubble so to speak I find gems and I reread them. And the question in my mind is the blind. Everyday I say what would a blind person do. And knowing about computers and m dimensions i find of the blind i know so little. Do blind people dream in Technicolor and blind is sort of a misnomer because there r all grades of blindness. I worked at two of the most important eye hospitals I dare say in the world. I was referred to as a Doctor on many occasions because I would take it upon myself to learn what I had to do to make life saving decisions. My ex wife had a cancer(?) in her eye. It was my job to decide what treatment to take. So before the internet I was allowed to research at the hospital about treatment and finally we opted for a cobolt plaque sewn onto the eyeball for about 2 weeks. The treatment worked and she is still alive some 20 years latter. So where will I be in 30 days from now. My wish is to return to Kenya and my wife Cecilia and my friend George who lives nearby. George is legally blind but can see shapes and his warm greeting always warms my heart. Georges elder wife is totally blind and George would escort her to the bathroom some 100 meters away. My heart can hardly bear the sight of this and I have only admiration for George as he maintains his two wives. Now u think how wonderful having two wives but George believes sex will shorten ur life. So no sex if u want to live forever. We sit and talk of politics of Kenya and he use to work for the US embassy and survives on a pension of about $500 a month.He use to be Roman Catholic but changed to Muslim so he could save the wife of his friend who was turned out into the street by her tribe after his friend died. In Kenya as I have heard a man can legally have 4 wives. Anyway I miss George and wish to return. But blind people how do they survive? If I was blind now I could not survive. Being dependent on others for almost everything. So my dream is to help others who r blind. But I am not a philanthropist just a retired fool who never built saving for this day. But I am happy belonging to no one free to battle windmills. Because if I take myself to serious then I become a threat. But an old fool can be suffered by many where as an arrogant old man will be stoned at a moments notice. So I dodder a bit and don't shave often and this leaves my plate clean. I have so many inventions and no money to pursue them and I am afraid I will die with my song unsung. So here I am no money and the desire to return to my home and my wives and my children. And they all want to come here. Kisumu is paradise where u can find a spot of peace and yes challenge. But I find the dream of coming to the USA is such a false dream. To give up family and tribe to come here. Family is first and having been tossed a gold ring u leave ur family and friends and come to the USA where u know not ur neighbor. In 25 years at my home I never once met my neighbor.In Kenya i know and enjoy most of my neighbors. Old men r elders in Kenya in USA just fodder for the nursing homes. Why would I want to stay here (medical) that is the only reason. My son has his live in girlfriend his own trailer and plays games all day long so I am a burden to him not a help. But someday I expect him to come to Kenya and we will have good times. His mother loves him and she supports him so well I am not needed here. So I hope to put my roots in Kenyan soil and grow my family and help those who need help most the blind women of Kenya. I need people and constantly I am searching for helpers but they don't come. So lets us see if I can lift a few souls and start growing my roots in Kenya. My philosophy is so strange that there r few who can understand me. I don't need power or fame I already have done more in my life than any millionaires could so now I want to help people and some day save the world. Because the future of mankind lies in Kenya. The USA is like Rome in its last great days. Still great but given a kick will decline. But that is as always the history of mankind. So here I am with the wish in my hand and no money to go.