Returning to Kenya

When u r flying on a plane and u approach the airport there is a point where the engines stop struggling and a peace comes about as if the engines have stopped and u r flying into heaven. That is where I am now. The mission has been accomplish the move has been made in 4 months to move a mountain accumulated over 25 years. Lots of things were tossed. But the books were saved. I estimated I have about 5000 books out on the porch and the little storage shed. Some r abused and one touch they practically fall apart but they have been my treasures and sifting through the rubble so to speak I find gems and I reread them. And the question in my mind is the blind. Everyday I say what would a blind person do. And knowing about computers and m dimensions i find of the blind i know so little. Do blind people dream in Technicolor and blind is sort of a misnomer because there r all grades of blindness. I worked at two of the most important eye hospitals I dare say in the world. I was referred to as a Doctor on many occasions because I would take it upon myself to learn what I had to do to make life saving decisions. My ex wife had a cancer(?) in her eye. It was my job to decide what treatment to take. So before the internet I was allowed to research at the hospital about treatment and finally we opted for a cobolt plaque sewn onto the eyeball for about 2 weeks. The treatment worked and she is still alive some 20 years latter. So where will I be in 30 days from now. My wish is to return to Kenya and my wife Cecilia and my friend George who lives nearby. George is legally blind but can see shapes and his warm greeting always warms my heart. Georges elder wife is totally blind and George would escort her to the bathroom some 100 meters away. My heart can hardly bear the sight of this and I have only admiration for George as he maintains his two wives. Now u think how wonderful having two wives but George believes sex will shorten ur life. So no sex if u want to live forever. We sit and talk of politics of Kenya and he use to work for the US embassy and survives on a pension of about $500 a month.He use to be Roman Catholic but changed to Muslim so he could save the wife of his friend who was turned out into the street by her tribe after his friend died. In Kenya as I have heard a man can legally have 4 wives. Anyway I miss George and wish to return. But blind people how do they survive? If I was blind now I could not survive. Being dependent on others for almost everything. So my dream is to help others who r blind. But I am not a philanthropist just a retired fool who never built saving for this day. But I am happy belonging to no one free to battle windmills. Because if I take myself to serious then I become a threat. But an old fool can be suffered by many where as an arrogant old man will be stoned at a moments notice. So I dodder a bit and don't shave often and this leaves my plate clean. I have so many inventions and no money to pursue them and I am afraid I will die with my song unsung. So here I am no money and the desire to return to my home and my wives and my children. And they all want to come here. Kisumu is paradise where u can find a spot of peace and yes challenge. But I find the dream of coming to the USA is such a false dream. To give up family and tribe to come here. Family is first and having been tossed a gold ring u leave ur family and friends and come to the USA where u know not ur neighbor. In 25 years at my home I never once met my neighbor.In Kenya i know and enjoy most of my neighbors. Old men r elders in Kenya in USA just fodder for the nursing homes. Why would I want to stay here (medical) that is the only reason. My son has his live in girlfriend his own trailer and plays games all day long so I am a burden to him not a help. But someday I expect him to come to Kenya and we will have good times. His mother loves him and she supports him so well I am not needed here. So I hope to put my roots in Kenyan soil and grow my family and help those who need help most the blind women of Kenya. I need people and constantly I am searching for helpers but they don't come. So lets us see if I can lift a few souls and start growing my roots in Kenya. My philosophy is so strange that there r few who can understand me. I don't need power or fame I already have done more in my life than any millionaires could so now I want to help people and some day save the world. Because the future of mankind lies in Kenya. The USA is like Rome in its last great days. Still great but given a kick will decline. But that is as always the history of mankind. So here I am with the wish in my hand and no money to go.